Posts tagged lorelai
On Being Her Mother...

photo by Sleepy Fox Photography

Motherhood is the sweetest and most all-consuming adventure I've even been on. There's something (okay, everything) about being someone's entire world that changes you so much... for the better. For as long as I can remember I've wanted to be a mother. A good mother. The best mother. Totally present and involved with every adventure, heartache and discovery.

My days lately are spent quietly, quaintly, with one eye permanently fixed on almost-four-year-old fingers grabbing things they probably shouldn't be or skinned knees that tell a story of park visits, ballet class and hikes to the creek. I wake each morning to a stream of sunlight filtering through our curtains and my first thought is always, "I wonder how she slept" followed closely by "I wonder how I can make her day memorable and exciting." That's what motherhood is, putting someone else before yourself, even in thought.

Our little Lorelai is so magical! She is sweet and strong willed, fiery and fluid, graceful and totally driven to make incredible leaps, get dirty and PLAY.  She is safe and proud in her own skin, has the craziest and silliest sense of humor and sees the world through such open, accepting and unbiased eyes. She is such an incredible gift from the cosmos, from the universe, from God to me. She is a gift to everyone and makes this world so much sweeter!

Mother's Day is this weekend and while breakfast in bed and extra snuggles mean the world to me, I am just so grateful for an occasion to turn inward and meditate on what it means to be her mommy. I am so very blessed.

A Dose of Pretty

Today I'm appearing on my good friend Sara's blog, A Dose of Pretty. When Sara approached me to participate in her "Mommies Behind the Blog" series I was flattered. A longtime fan of the feature, I've taken so much inspiration and reassurance from other creative mommas and their unique stories. Whats more, the post finally gave me an excuse to play dress up in a giant dreamy cotton field (be still my styling heart!) with Lorelai. It's such a blessing to capture Lo as she is during this fun and special age of three!

A huge thank you to Sara for having me on her truly beautiful site! To read about motherhood, life and the future of Chelsea & The City, please check out the interview here.

On Bringing Up Little Girls...

photo by Sleepy Fox Photography at Billy Reid

Being a mother is an incredible gift. Trust me, there are days when I'm tempted to exchange my little present for store credit (just kidding... kind of) but the experience of nurturing a tiny soul and being someone's entire word is a feeling that just can't be duplicated. Thus far, our little family has been fortunate enough that I can continue to be at home with Lorelai. Trying to balance blogging, styling, teaching at-home preschool, meeting with clients/collaborators, fostering a loving intimate relationship with Mr. Jackson, running a (sometimes) smooth household and ultimately shaping a little person is a lot to take on. Sometimes I feel like I'm heaping all of these challenges onto my plate in order to feel/appear secure in my choice to be an at-home parent.

Yesterday I read something on Amanda's blog that just struck my heart and echoed every bit of what I have been feeling lately. Her words burrowed deep within me and made a little home, ready to remind me that motherhood is all I need, even when it seems as though there is pressure coming from all angles. Amanda says,

Because we live in a world that rewards a fast pace, sexy, free-spirited, and independent lifestyle, the importance of being a young, wholesome mother that focuses on domesticity is sometimes overlooked, scoffed at even! Ridiculous as it is, i have been criticized, even ridiculed, for being a young mother, and a stay at home mother at that. Therefore, in my own fleshy and insecure mind as a parent it is sometimes difficult when reminding myself that simple is indeed really good. Truthfully, there are days when it is pretty hard being confident in that seemingly transparent but not culturally celebrated ideology.
— Amanda Watters, It's The Little Things Blog

Though it can be difficult at times, boasting the title "momma" before every other accomplishment (and in lieu of some pretty impressive sounding words like MD or lawyer), it truly is the role that I am most happy to fill. There is something especially meaningful about bringing up a little girl. I have been gifted the incredible responsibility of building her entire sense of self from the ground up. I am who she will look to for an example of how to treat her body, how to use her mind. She will follow my lead and either respect herself and cherish herself or (heaven forbid)... not.

The whole process not only shapes her, it changes me, for the better. No longer do I linger on the scale, pinching and prodding when things don't look as taut as I think they should. I try my hardest not to mutter phrases like, "I'm so dumb" or "Duh, I'm just slow," like I have so eloquently said in years past. I expect more from peers, family and relationships because one day she will face a situation and take stock in what she has seen me find acceptable. I am leading by example and I am leading myself first, intentionally, so that I am qualified to do so.

Often I am blessed to see Lo light up and tell me things like, "I'm so beautiful" and "Wow, aren't I smart?" These instances, more than the trillion things I ramble on about when people ask if I'm only a stay at home mom, are what validates my decision. For now, I find comfort knowing that I'm the only one (okay, Mr. Jackson helps too) that is showing my daughter how to be a girl... and ultimately become a woman.

How crucial were your mother/sister/grandmother/aunt/care-giver's habits in shaping you as a woman? Are you parenting a little girl? I would love a little feedback... it really does take a (great big blog reading) village!